Still hard to believe...

It's beginning to happen on almost a daily basis now. To believe that the first time was only a few weeks ago and now daily, and still, every time it happens I am taken aback.  Dr. "Ash".  That's me... yep... still hasn't really sunk in...still strange when the mail comes addressed to me as Dr.  I realize that I now have less than a month before orientation starts and that pretty much terrifies me in a way and excites me at the same time.  The conflicting emotions are SO confusing!  I went by the VA last week to have my fingerprints done and as I was sitting in the HR office I had a very surreal moment.  There were several other people coming in to be printed as well, all of them interns.  I had a moment of depersonalization as I sat there.  It reminded me (and yes I am about to say it) of a Grey's Anatomy moment.  I am about to be an INTERN....the dreaded NEW interns.  Gah..... we know that everyone hates us and thinks that we are incompetent.  I'm sure that everyone chuckles as they begin to see the lost "terns" walking through the halls, staring at their papers trying to figure out where they are supposed to be.  That was totally me...lost...staring at my map...getting directions from the first person with a badge I came across.  So it begins...prayers would be appreciated!  Somehow, I have to figure out how to not look like a fool!  AND to top things off, I'm ON CALL my VERY FIRST DAY OF WORK!  Let's hope the expectations aren't too high and my uppers will be nice to me!  Geez.... I'm SO not ready for this!